Really feeling this tune and the eye candy on display is just amazing....
Thursday, 2 July 2009
This is why relationships are bullshit.
Just a little something to compliment the previous post.
This is kinda what happened between me and Tonya except without all the gore and blood but I'm sure you'll get the picture.
This is kinda what happened between me and Tonya except without all the gore and blood but I'm sure you'll get the picture.
I Would Have Been In Love By Now If It Wasn't for T.O.N.Y.A
First off a couple of months ago I was really feeling this song by Solange called T.O.N.Y.
Anyway the song is about not letting go of someone and how it impacts on you, in Solange's case the guys name is Tony which is actually an acronym for The Other Night whY?
So while listening to the song I started thinking back to my own T.O.N.Y.A.
(Closest female name I could think of to TONY cos saying TONY would just be gay and just to set the record straight I do not have any friends that are named Tonya either).
If you know me then you of my controversial views about relationships and how I do not feel I will ever get married and I honestly do not mind if I spend the rest of my life alone. I am known for being notoriously picky and extremely hard to please and not showing an ounce of compassion when it comes to the opposite sex. As you may have guessed it was all because I met Tonya. I was young, naive and just became obsessed with this female who I just had to make mine even though I knew I couldn't have her. Needless to say I still embarked on a forbidden relationship with Tonya and it doesn't take a genius to guess that it ended with my heart being torn to shreds.......................allow me I was 16.
So I guess for a long time I just never recovered form my initial heartbreak which led to the aforementioned behaviour. In all honestly I was just protecting myself from being hurt again, I'm human, it was a natural reaction.
It took me a long time to get over Tonya, and after many failed interactions with females and one extremely disastrous relationship I saw no reason to change the way I thought about relationships. I saw them as a waste of time and I just felt that when I observed relationships form the outside in it just seemed most of them were boring run of the mill, routine, predictable exclusive associations where the two parties involved had just conformed to a tired stereotype that they couldn't even pretend to act out properly. I still question if there is any such actual thing as love. So even if I was getting to know a female I would always shelter my emotions and restrict how much they actually got to know me. This led to the females in question getting irritated that I never let them in and they subsequently faded out of my existence. I can't blame them, I'm a hard person to get along with.
But there is a hope for me yet people. After various conversations with various people I came to realise that I was using the experience with Tonya as a shield to hide behind. One friend put it bluntly that I was just being a"coward". I was too afraid to put myself out there again. I mean the whole point of pursuing a relationship is that you accept the gamble you might get hurt.
I finally feel ready to take the gamble and actually start letting people in. I don't know what became of Tonya or neither do I care. I probably would have been in love by now if it wasn't for Tonya. But I've been over you for a few years now but your ghost still haunted me. But I have now exorcised the demon you left within me.
Don't get me wrong; I still have a lot of problems about relationships- I'm just finally ready to do something about it.
Anyway the song is about not letting go of someone and how it impacts on you, in Solange's case the guys name is Tony which is actually an acronym for The Other Night whY?
So while listening to the song I started thinking back to my own T.O.N.Y.A.
(Closest female name I could think of to TONY cos saying TONY would just be gay and just to set the record straight I do not have any friends that are named Tonya either).
If you know me then you of my controversial views about relationships and how I do not feel I will ever get married and I honestly do not mind if I spend the rest of my life alone. I am known for being notoriously picky and extremely hard to please and not showing an ounce of compassion when it comes to the opposite sex. As you may have guessed it was all because I met Tonya. I was young, naive and just became obsessed with this female who I just had to make mine even though I knew I couldn't have her. Needless to say I still embarked on a forbidden relationship with Tonya and it doesn't take a genius to guess that it ended with my heart being torn to shreds.......................allow me I was 16.
So I guess for a long time I just never recovered form my initial heartbreak which led to the aforementioned behaviour. In all honestly I was just protecting myself from being hurt again, I'm human, it was a natural reaction.
It took me a long time to get over Tonya, and after many failed interactions with females and one extremely disastrous relationship I saw no reason to change the way I thought about relationships. I saw them as a waste of time and I just felt that when I observed relationships form the outside in it just seemed most of them were boring run of the mill, routine, predictable exclusive associations where the two parties involved had just conformed to a tired stereotype that they couldn't even pretend to act out properly. I still question if there is any such actual thing as love. So even if I was getting to know a female I would always shelter my emotions and restrict how much they actually got to know me. This led to the females in question getting irritated that I never let them in and they subsequently faded out of my existence. I can't blame them, I'm a hard person to get along with.
But there is a hope for me yet people. After various conversations with various people I came to realise that I was using the experience with Tonya as a shield to hide behind. One friend put it bluntly that I was just being a"coward". I was too afraid to put myself out there again. I mean the whole point of pursuing a relationship is that you accept the gamble you might get hurt.
I finally feel ready to take the gamble and actually start letting people in. I don't know what became of Tonya or neither do I care. I probably would have been in love by now if it wasn't for Tonya. But I've been over you for a few years now but your ghost still haunted me. But I have now exorcised the demon you left within me.
Don't get me wrong; I still have a lot of problems about relationships- I'm just finally ready to do something about it.
Ode To Brighton
I know a proper Blog post has been long over due......................I'm a waste man I know.
But because I have just recently graduated I feel the best way for me to truly reflect on my time in Uni is through a blog post.
Anyway, while I was still preparing for exams me and a couple of the mandem were walking to the library which was the norm at that time. A friend asked me because I was finishing soon what I would leave Uni with.........................."What just a degree?" he chuckled. Now this got me thinking and after a few seconds I replied that "A degree will probably be the least important thing I leave with." And this is the reason why:
When I first arrived at the University of Brighton at the tender age of 18 I was arrogant, full of myself, I always thought I was right and stubborn and everything else you would think a young man as my self would have acted like.
(I know some of you will be making the dead joke "but your still like that though")
I think the most important thing I will take form my Uni experience was the time it allowed me to grow. I had a lot of issues and insecurities back then which I was not ready to deal with because I was a child. Not physically but emotionally. But through the tough challenges and the forced times of solitude I faced during this time I finally became a man. I came to learn that I had to start compromising and not just believe that no matter the situation I was always right. I learnt to care about people and not just give up on various types of bonds like they meant nothing. I learnt not to hold grudges and just move on with life. I learnt a lot, I learnt the necessary life and social skills needed to go far in this life.
There were also the amazing people and Friends I met while in Brighton. I honestly have made some true life long friends. Have to show love to Da Mandem who have given me too many joke memories.
I met alot of interesting females- some of dem just straight up crazy - but it was all jokes I suppose. I formed strong attachments with a few females in particular that I never ever thought I would be able to form.
And just all the random people I met that introduced me to the wide array of people there are in this world.
Coming to Brighton allowed me to step out of my comfort zone and find the true me. I feel that being in Endz forces someone to act a particular way which in most cases is detrimental to the person. It was only by coming to Brighton and just being free and being allowed to experiment and find the true me that I can sit here and truly say that I am an adult.
It would be long to detail all of my experiences I had over the last 3 years, just cos there are so many, but I feel so grateful for them cos they have truly made me a better person.
And as I stand at the door of my future, ready to venture out into the real world I feel safe knowing that all the experiences, trials, tribulations and friends have helped and taught me that I can deal with anything that may come my way.
Brighton was truly my home for the last 3 years and I will never forget the time I had or the people I met. I will miss the freedom, my friends all being in one place, the late nights, the laughs, the bad times, the broke times, the group excurisons, the sunsets, the walk up the moutain, the crazy times, the widdecombe houseparties and the arguments. I'll miss it all.........................................
This is my Ode to Birghton xxx
But because I have just recently graduated I feel the best way for me to truly reflect on my time in Uni is through a blog post.
Anyway, while I was still preparing for exams me and a couple of the mandem were walking to the library which was the norm at that time. A friend asked me because I was finishing soon what I would leave Uni with.........................."What just a degree?" he chuckled. Now this got me thinking and after a few seconds I replied that "A degree will probably be the least important thing I leave with." And this is the reason why:
When I first arrived at the University of Brighton at the tender age of 18 I was arrogant, full of myself, I always thought I was right and stubborn and everything else you would think a young man as my self would have acted like.
(I know some of you will be making the dead joke "but your still like that though")
I think the most important thing I will take form my Uni experience was the time it allowed me to grow. I had a lot of issues and insecurities back then which I was not ready to deal with because I was a child. Not physically but emotionally. But through the tough challenges and the forced times of solitude I faced during this time I finally became a man. I came to learn that I had to start compromising and not just believe that no matter the situation I was always right. I learnt to care about people and not just give up on various types of bonds like they meant nothing. I learnt not to hold grudges and just move on with life. I learnt a lot, I learnt the necessary life and social skills needed to go far in this life.
There were also the amazing people and Friends I met while in Brighton. I honestly have made some true life long friends. Have to show love to Da Mandem who have given me too many joke memories.
I met alot of interesting females- some of dem just straight up crazy - but it was all jokes I suppose. I formed strong attachments with a few females in particular that I never ever thought I would be able to form.
And just all the random people I met that introduced me to the wide array of people there are in this world.
Coming to Brighton allowed me to step out of my comfort zone and find the true me. I feel that being in Endz forces someone to act a particular way which in most cases is detrimental to the person. It was only by coming to Brighton and just being free and being allowed to experiment and find the true me that I can sit here and truly say that I am an adult.
It would be long to detail all of my experiences I had over the last 3 years, just cos there are so many, but I feel so grateful for them cos they have truly made me a better person.
And as I stand at the door of my future, ready to venture out into the real world I feel safe knowing that all the experiences, trials, tribulations and friends have helped and taught me that I can deal with anything that may come my way.
Brighton was truly my home for the last 3 years and I will never forget the time I had or the people I met. I will miss the freedom, my friends all being in one place, the late nights, the laughs, the bad times, the broke times, the group excurisons, the sunsets, the walk up the moutain, the crazy times, the widdecombe houseparties and the arguments. I'll miss it all.........................................
This is my Ode to Birghton xxx
............... Is The Best
So here is Drake's video for The Best I Ever Had.
TBH I think the video has nothing to do with the song but it was directed by my boi Kanyeezy so you can't be too disappointed. Although the video does make use of a lot of sexual innuendos and multiple close up shots of bouncing boobies.
I'm really looking forward to Drake's Album and hopefully he can build upon the hype and success of So Far Gone.
But this is the Drake tune I'm really feeling at the moment:
TBH I think the video has nothing to do with the song but it was directed by my boi Kanyeezy so you can't be too disappointed. Although the video does make use of a lot of sexual innuendos and multiple close up shots of bouncing boobies.
I'm really looking forward to Drake's Album and hopefully he can build upon the hype and success of So Far Gone.
But this is the Drake tune I'm really feeling at the moment:
Tuesday, 26 May 2009
I'M FINSHED......................
I know, I know........................its the return of the most inconsistent blogger ever but believe you me the last month has been no joke.
Between finishing off my disso and sitting 6 exams in four days and then having to prepare for an oral examination I haven't even had time to sleep let alone blog.
But no worries cos.....................
Yep I'm done with Uni now. No more essays or exams. I'm FREE. I can do whatever I want and I thoroughly intend to enjoy life over the next couple of months just because I fully deserve too.
So look forward to the usual brand of my writing, rants and observations you have become accustomed to at MIKEZ WORLD.
Between finishing off my disso and sitting 6 exams in four days and then having to prepare for an oral examination I haven't even had time to sleep let alone blog.
But no worries cos.....................
I'M FINISHED NOW!!
Yep I'm done with Uni now. No more essays or exams. I'm FREE. I can do whatever I want and I thoroughly intend to enjoy life over the next couple of months just because I fully deserve too.
So look forward to the usual brand of my writing, rants and observations you have become accustomed to at MIKEZ WORLD.
Sunday, 26 April 2009
So Why Exactly Has He Changed?
I know I am an inconsistent blogger, but I'm busy. Trust it burns me not to blog but I have to concentrate on other things at the moment. So this will just be a quick one.
So as I was surfing through the pages of Facebook I came along my friend's status update which I thought was very interesting, it read:
"-----
I thought it would have been obvious, I mean do females really need this questione answered? Its so simple. I mean its staring you right in the face.
Anyway after certain people asked me to elaborate I gave reasons for what might cause a sudden change in the attitude of someone you are getting to know on that level. So here is what I wrote:
1) Guys know what to do in order "snare" or "entrap" a woman. They know they need to be as emotionally & physically attractive as possible. Now in most cases guys are just trying to "beat" and run. Guys are very crafty in the sense they will zero in on everything you want in a guy and then through some kind of Oscar nominated performance pretend to be that guy till you give it up. So when they are being chivalrous or being what you call a true gentleman, they are in fact acting knowing that this is how you'd prefer them to act so that eventually you'll nicely open your legs when the appropriate time comes.
2) In relationship formation it is standard practice that it is seen as "relationship suicide" if you come out right from the start about who you truly are. No one wants someone on their first encounter to come clean about all their insecurities, inhibitions and infidelities, so they portray the A-class standard of themselves just to give the relationship a chance to develop. After a while when the person deems that enough time has passed; they will start letting their true selves out in little doses or in some extreme cases all at once. All to an extent that the person you are left with standing in front of you no longer bares any resemblance to the person you initially got to know. Everyone does it, just depends to what extent you decide to do it.
3) They have just gotten comfortable. Not that they have been consciously trying to deceive you, but enough time has passed and they don't feel to adhere to certain rules of the "social contract" anymore and feel that your relationship has developed enough to withstand certain outbursts, or certain slips of the tongue. This is not really ripping off the mask but as a relationship develops then obviously you should be able to express certain things that you wouldn't have been able to at the beginning.
4) The person is looking to "dissolve the relationship" either because he has achieved or not achieved the goals set out in reason (1) and cannot be bothered to carry on with the act anymore. Or he is just putting on another act in trying to show his worst aspects of himself because he wants to end the relationship but does not want to be the one to actually do it. Guys are very smart in knowing that females feel a sense of power and accomplishment when they feel there is no saving a relationship and so decide to end it. What ladies do not know is that the guy will almost unconsciously force you to break up with him through the way he switches up his personality. So there is a win-win situation. The girl will feel she took the initiative in ending it and will have justification when they speak to their girls: "he was a dickhead anyway, I'm better off anyway". The guy will win knowing that he can say the girl ended it, if any arguments start and will have the added benefit of not looking like a playa when he moves onto his next victim.
This is an often used tactic that a lot of guys use to make sure the relationship ends on their terms even though the female may feel it ended on hers.
Can't think of anymore but those are the main reasons that came straight to my head in terms of why you may feel someone has changed from when you first met them to now.
Now don't go around accusing all your ex guys that they used these underhanded tactics. They may be other reasons that I have failed to mention, or who knows. Maybe they changed because there was a change in you first? I note, FEMALES use these same tactics as well, it is not a phenomena used exclusively by the male species.
Hope I have answered your question and not unwittingly caused any arguments between couples because of this.
From the management of www.mikez-world.blogspot.com
Mike. O
So as I was surfing through the pages of Facebook I came along my friend's status update which I thought was very interesting, it read:
"-----
wants to know why do guys act like sweet gentlemen at the beginning of something new, then a couple months later rip of their masks and reveal the TRUE DOG behind their imposterous identity??? I want to know!"
I thought it would have been obvious, I mean do females really need this questione answered? Its so simple. I mean its staring you right in the face.
Anyway after certain people asked me to elaborate I gave reasons for what might cause a sudden change in the attitude of someone you are getting to know on that level. So here is what I wrote:
1) Guys know what to do in order "snare" or "entrap" a woman. They know they need to be as emotionally & physically attractive as possible. Now in most cases guys are just trying to "beat" and run. Guys are very crafty in the sense they will zero in on everything you want in a guy and then through some kind of Oscar nominated performance pretend to be that guy till you give it up. So when they are being chivalrous or being what you call a true gentleman, they are in fact acting knowing that this is how you'd prefer them to act so that eventually you'll nicely open your legs when the appropriate time comes.
2) In relationship formation it is standard practice that it is seen as "relationship suicide" if you come out right from the start about who you truly are. No one wants someone on their first encounter to come clean about all their insecurities, inhibitions and infidelities, so they portray the A-class standard of themselves just to give the relationship a chance to develop. After a while when the person deems that enough time has passed; they will start letting their true selves out in little doses or in some extreme cases all at once. All to an extent that the person you are left with standing in front of you no longer bares any resemblance to the person you initially got to know. Everyone does it, just depends to what extent you decide to do it.
3) They have just gotten comfortable. Not that they have been consciously trying to deceive you, but enough time has passed and they don't feel to adhere to certain rules of the "social contract" anymore and feel that your relationship has developed enough to withstand certain outbursts, or certain slips of the tongue. This is not really ripping off the mask but as a relationship develops then obviously you should be able to express certain things that you wouldn't have been able to at the beginning.
4) The person is looking to "dissolve the relationship" either because he has achieved or not achieved the goals set out in reason (1) and cannot be bothered to carry on with the act anymore. Or he is just putting on another act in trying to show his worst aspects of himself because he wants to end the relationship but does not want to be the one to actually do it. Guys are very smart in knowing that females feel a sense of power and accomplishment when they feel there is no saving a relationship and so decide to end it. What ladies do not know is that the guy will almost unconsciously force you to break up with him through the way he switches up his personality. So there is a win-win situation. The girl will feel she took the initiative in ending it and will have justification when they speak to their girls: "he was a dickhead anyway, I'm better off anyway". The guy will win knowing that he can say the girl ended it, if any arguments start and will have the added benefit of not looking like a playa when he moves onto his next victim.
This is an often used tactic that a lot of guys use to make sure the relationship ends on their terms even though the female may feel it ended on hers.
Can't think of anymore but those are the main reasons that came straight to my head in terms of why you may feel someone has changed from when you first met them to now.
Now don't go around accusing all your ex guys that they used these underhanded tactics. They may be other reasons that I have failed to mention, or who knows. Maybe they changed because there was a change in you first? I note, FEMALES use these same tactics as well, it is not a phenomena used exclusively by the male species.
Hope I have answered your question and not unwittingly caused any arguments between couples because of this.
From the management of www.mikez-world.blogspot.c
Mike. O
Wednesday, 8 April 2009
BASHY IS SICK!!!
So I read a couple of other Blogs and from time to time I pop over to Bashy's word press blog and see what he is saying. I'm a big fan of his and I think he has what it takes to BLOW.
Anyway my housemate came to me the other day saying how there's a rumour Bashy got rushed and he put a pic up on his blog to confirm it:

Like other people I was kinda sceptical as to if the picture was real. I mean it does look very convincing but on closer inspection there isn't enough swelling if Bashy really did get touched like that. Bashy was very silent on the matter, not responding to people commenting on his blog and only leaving a cryptic saying by Ghandi.
So I thought I'd leave it and see what happens.
So I woke up this morning and came along this video................
It all became apparent. The pic was like a promo for his new video which you clearly see has Bashy sporting the same injuries as in the picture. The video also has another 2 artists I rate highly, Wretch and Scorcher. It's entitled Ransom Part 1, so I think it's safe to assume there might be another couple of videos being released.
Have to rate Bashy for this one man. I like artists that can push the boundaries and just do things differently. Gotta commend him on his originality. And the video looks very professional as well, just shows certain man are moving up the industry ladder.
Bashy's Album: Catch Me If You Can is released on June 1st. Might have to go buy myself a copy still.

Anyway my housemate came to me the other day saying how there's a rumour Bashy got rushed and he put a pic up on his blog to confirm it:

Like other people I was kinda sceptical as to if the picture was real. I mean it does look very convincing but on closer inspection there isn't enough swelling if Bashy really did get touched like that. Bashy was very silent on the matter, not responding to people commenting on his blog and only leaving a cryptic saying by Ghandi.
So I thought I'd leave it and see what happens.
So I woke up this morning and came along this video................
It all became apparent. The pic was like a promo for his new video which you clearly see has Bashy sporting the same injuries as in the picture. The video also has another 2 artists I rate highly, Wretch and Scorcher. It's entitled Ransom Part 1, so I think it's safe to assume there might be another couple of videos being released.
Have to rate Bashy for this one man. I like artists that can push the boundaries and just do things differently. Gotta commend him on his originality. And the video looks very professional as well, just shows certain man are moving up the industry ladder.
Bashy's Album: Catch Me If You Can is released on June 1st. Might have to go buy myself a copy still.


Tuesday, 7 April 2009
DRIZZY......................SO FAR GONE
So a couple of months ago I was sitting chilling in the pool room. Just talking to some people on FB chat like everyone else does.
Out of nowhere my friend Alexis pops up and starts screaming and raving about some guy called Drake.

I was like Drake who?
She then went on about how he's a signing to Weezy's cash money records and he released a new mixtape. A rapper and a vocalist she said. I immediately had my doubts because I'm sceptical of new musicians especially people trying to be more than one thing. But I'll give everyone a chance.
So I listened to the mixtape, and what else could I say??
IT WAS NANG, SICK, OUT OF THIS WORLD, IT WAS JUST..........................SO FAR GONE.
Had it on repeat for a good month but then I forgot about him until I saw this on Julie's Blog..
And then I was like, sheeeet, its Drake. And I thought I would share his music with you. Listen to it!!! Link below.
Out of nowhere my friend Alexis pops up and starts screaming and raving about some guy called Drake.

I was like Drake who?
She then went on about how he's a signing to Weezy's cash money records and he released a new mixtape. A rapper and a vocalist she said. I immediately had my doubts because I'm sceptical of new musicians especially people trying to be more than one thing. But I'll give everyone a chance.
So I listened to the mixtape, and what else could I say??
IT WAS NANG, SICK, OUT OF THIS WORLD, IT WAS JUST..........................SO FAR GONE.
Had it on repeat for a good month but then I forgot about him until I saw this on Julie's Blog..
And then I was like, sheeeet, its Drake. And I thought I would share his music with you. Listen to it!!! Link below.
Monday, 6 April 2009
The Whole HeartBreak Saga.............
Recently on my FB I had a whole lot of weird statuses about the "City of Heartbreak" which really confused a lot of people, so I'm going to take some time out to explain what I was going through and what I was trying to achieve.
First off listen to this...................................................
YEEZY IS A GENIUS! FULL STOP. I DON'T CARE IF YOU THINK HE IS GAY, ARROGANT, WEIRD OR WHATEVER. SSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHH!!!
I JUST DO NOT WANT TO HEAR IT! HE'S A GENIUS, CASE CLOSED!!
ok.
So if you have listened to this song and did not have it on repeat for a solid week then you are not listening to the song properly. Or you are just one of those unlucky people that can't understand Kanye's music. The 1st time I heard the song I was in my uni's computer pool room and the song just had one different affect on me.
It was the line"Welcome To Heartbreak" that really got me.
Where was this place and how do you get there?
Obviously, I know Heartbreak is not a real place, but a state of being, and the only way to get there was to have my heartbroken.
Having my heartbroken is not something that I intend being done to me anytime soon, but I still wanted to go to this place. I'm stubborn like that.
So through Kanye's "abstract expression" and my powerful childlike imagination I created a world within Mikez World. Through the sheer power of my imagination and craziness I created a little community in the nether regions of my mind. And "Heartbreak" was created.
Now, in this community where all those heartbroken fools who moped around all depressed and did nothing all day. Crying over the ones who had caused their fragile hearts to break in the first place. Among these down trodden people I found a place I could call home...........so I started property hunting.
I found a nice little house and put this as my doormat:

I thought my fellow neighbours would accept me, they didn't.
I mean I was heartbroken just not in the sense they were. My heart was broken in the sense I think its faulty. I find it very hard to care for people and when I don't care for someone they mean absolutely nothing to me. I'm what you might call cold hearted. I also did not care for intimate relationships either. Something I thought heartbroken people could relate to.
But the other residents of Heartbreak did not accept me, they complained that I didn't belong and I should leave. I pleaded my case but they would not listen.
(This is all played out on my FB statuses, if you don't understand read back over my statuses and you should start to piece it together and understand)
I liked expressing myself abstractly through my statuses even though not many people got them. People thought I was actually heartbroken, as if someone could actually touch my heart let alone break it. PLEASE.
Even though I explicitly stated I was not heartbroken, I just guess some people are illiterate.
But I decided to go back to my controversial statuses and all my FB friends rejoiced.
LOL , stupid idiots, they don't know a genius when they see one. I guess me and my boi Kanye will just have to remain misunderstood.
First off listen to this...................................................
YEEZY IS A GENIUS! FULL STOP. I DON'T CARE IF YOU THINK HE IS GAY, ARROGANT, WEIRD OR WHATEVER. SSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHH!!!
I JUST DO NOT WANT TO HEAR IT! HE'S A GENIUS, CASE CLOSED!!
ok.
So if you have listened to this song and did not have it on repeat for a solid week then you are not listening to the song properly. Or you are just one of those unlucky people that can't understand Kanye's music. The 1st time I heard the song I was in my uni's computer pool room and the song just had one different affect on me.
It was the line"Welcome To Heartbreak" that really got me.
Where was this place and how do you get there?
Obviously, I know Heartbreak is not a real place, but a state of being, and the only way to get there was to have my heartbroken.
Having my heartbroken is not something that I intend being done to me anytime soon, but I still wanted to go to this place. I'm stubborn like that.
So through Kanye's "abstract expression" and my powerful childlike imagination I created a world within Mikez World. Through the sheer power of my imagination and craziness I created a little community in the nether regions of my mind. And "Heartbreak" was created.
Now, in this community where all those heartbroken fools who moped around all depressed and did nothing all day. Crying over the ones who had caused their fragile hearts to break in the first place. Among these down trodden people I found a place I could call home...........so I started property hunting.
I found a nice little house and put this as my doormat:

I thought my fellow neighbours would accept me, they didn't.
I mean I was heartbroken just not in the sense they were. My heart was broken in the sense I think its faulty. I find it very hard to care for people and when I don't care for someone they mean absolutely nothing to me. I'm what you might call cold hearted. I also did not care for intimate relationships either. Something I thought heartbroken people could relate to.
But the other residents of Heartbreak did not accept me, they complained that I didn't belong and I should leave. I pleaded my case but they would not listen.
(This is all played out on my FB statuses, if you don't understand read back over my statuses and you should start to piece it together and understand)
I liked expressing myself abstractly through my statuses even though not many people got them. People thought I was actually heartbroken, as if someone could actually touch my heart let alone break it. PLEASE.
Even though I explicitly stated I was not heartbroken, I just guess some people are illiterate.
But I decided to go back to my controversial statuses and all my FB friends rejoiced.
LOL , stupid idiots, they don't know a genius when they see one. I guess me and my boi Kanye will just have to remain misunderstood.

Forget Me Nots- Back In The Day Record Of The Week #4
The best song Amy Winehouse ever made!!
I do not care what you think, you are wrong. This is her best song....
I do not care what you think, you are wrong. This is her best song....
I cuss people secretly in my head. Don't act like you don't do it too!
So the other day I was in Canterbury for my friends Rave.
Me, Rets, Ross, Nana and Shufflez had all gone down there for a road trip. We had bare joke along the way but this is not the reason for this post.
When we got to the club we were all a lil high and I wasn't really in the mood for raving. One of the reasons I go raving is too make sure I dance I have a good time. If any of you have seen me in a rave skankin it up with my man dem then you know I go hard. Sweatin real hard. However much I pay to get into the rave is the buckets I need to sweat from dancing to make me feel I've got my moneys worth. I don't know if it was that I got in free that I didn't feel like dancing or I just wasn't in the raving mood, but my two feet were not moving to the rhythm of any beat.
Now, when I'm in this mood I can always rely on the fact that there will always be some good eye candy to feast my eyes into. Someone had told me that there were bare choong girls in Kent as well so I was a little excited.
I WAS EXTREMELY DISAPPOINTED!
Every girl that walked past me, different phrases kept flashing through my head:
"Ergghh Buttaz" ..............................
"Lol, Fucked up weave".........................
"Can't dress"......................
"What did I say about obese people in raves?? BAN THEM"..............
"Flat bum"......................................
"No Breasts"...............................
"Fuck, How can you smell like that?".......................
"Didn't try"................................
"Plz don't look at me like that. I'm not looking at you cos' I think your nice and I'm deciding if I should move to you or not. I'm looking at you because I can't believe your face looks like that all the time!".........................
And it went on and on and on.
I mean I was disappointed, but at least I kept myself entertained. I think I kept others entertained as well because I other people had caught on to what I was doing from when every girl that passed me I would just start shaking my head in disappointment.
After that, I realised "evaluating" people in my head is something I do a lot. I mean I just can't help it, my mind is always working. I mean, before I even know it my brain already has 6 bullets of cussing ammo loaded in the insult shotgun ready to explode out of my mouth.
But the thing is; it rarely does. I like the idea that my mind is my own personal territory that no one else can penetrate. If only you people knew what passed through my head sometimes.......................you would be shocked, trust me. But don't start getting paranoid now.
Its just who I am.............What can I say?
I just have a very sick and twisted mynd. LOL
Me, Rets, Ross, Nana and Shufflez had all gone down there for a road trip. We had bare joke along the way but this is not the reason for this post.
When we got to the club we were all a lil high and I wasn't really in the mood for raving. One of the reasons I go raving is too make sure I dance I have a good time. If any of you have seen me in a rave skankin it up with my man dem then you know I go hard. Sweatin real hard. However much I pay to get into the rave is the buckets I need to sweat from dancing to make me feel I've got my moneys worth. I don't know if it was that I got in free that I didn't feel like dancing or I just wasn't in the raving mood, but my two feet were not moving to the rhythm of any beat.
Now, when I'm in this mood I can always rely on the fact that there will always be some good eye candy to feast my eyes into. Someone had told me that there were bare choong girls in Kent as well so I was a little excited.
I WAS EXTREMELY DISAPPOINTED!
Every girl that walked past me, different phrases kept flashing through my head:
"Ergghh Buttaz" ..............................
"Lol, Fucked up weave".........................
"Can't dress"......................
"What did I say about obese people in raves?? BAN THEM"..............
"Flat bum"......................................
"No Breasts"...............................
"Fuck, How can you smell like that?".......................
"Didn't try"................................
"Plz don't look at me like that. I'm not looking at you cos' I think your nice and I'm deciding if I should move to you or not. I'm looking at you because I can't believe your face looks like that all the time!".........................
And it went on and on and on.
I mean I was disappointed, but at least I kept myself entertained. I think I kept others entertained as well because I other people had caught on to what I was doing from when every girl that passed me I would just start shaking my head in disappointment.
After that, I realised "evaluating" people in my head is something I do a lot. I mean I just can't help it, my mind is always working. I mean, before I even know it my brain already has 6 bullets of cussing ammo loaded in the insult shotgun ready to explode out of my mouth.
But the thing is; it rarely does. I like the idea that my mind is my own personal territory that no one else can penetrate. If only you people knew what passed through my head sometimes.......................you would be shocked, trust me. But don't start getting paranoid now.
Its just who I am.............What can I say?
I just have a very sick and twisted mynd. LOL
Would You Save A Stranger??
Yh I know I'm a waste man for not posting when I said I would.
But between working and writing a dissertation I have no time to do anything but I've been feeling overly creative recently and I had to release something.
So because a few of you wonderful people know that my dissertation is on youth violence, quite a number of you text me a couple of nights ago telling me to watch channel 4 because you thought it was relevant to my disso.
It wasn't that relevant at all but it was interesting none the less.
And it poses the very real question that in any given situation when another member of our society is in trouble would we help them even if it meant risk to our own well being?
Now being where we are from, it is an unspoken rule that you just simply don't get involved in someone else's affairs if it does not concern you. It is not your beef so why should you get involved? Which is very true and it also protects you. Because even a polite "what's going on" can lead to the tables turning on you and before you know it your in a life threatening situation.
There was one story when a little boy was getting rushed on a packed bus by a group of like 15 youths and everyone just ignored it like it was not happening. Which I thought was shocking but I questioned myself and I would have probably done the same thing.
I remember going to a temp job around Christmas times like 2 years ago and I was on Tottenham High Road at like 5:30 in the morning. I was walking towards the bus stop and there seemed to be one crazy guy talking to two people. As I got closer I realised it was a typical "Jacking" situation where the guy was searching the guys looking for possessions he could steal.
Now I just walked past pretending not to see what was happening, just praying the guy did not see me as a potential victim because it was way too early for me to start fighting. But my bus came and I hopped on it just thankful this crazy guy had not tried to approach me. I do not know what happened to the other two guys.............................
And that's just the thing. In this day and age even if we see someone is in need of help, would we help them?
I'm sure the usual things run through our heads...
"Its not my place to get involved"
"What about if I get hurt trying to help this person?"
"Maybe they deserve it, who knows, they might have a valid reason for wanting to hurt the person?"
The documentary told the story of a woman called Roisin whose son had seen some children getting jacked and he decided to go and intervene. Unfortunately, he was fatally stabbed by the guy who was doing the jacking. A sad story I know but a real one. There is no guarantee when intervening in a dangerous situation that you will come out safe the other side.
There was another story of a guy who was getting his head kicked in by some crazy guy, luckily a passer by and a wife came to the guys rescue and saved his life.
So what would your choice be?
I guess it all comes down to what you could live with.
Could you live with the fact that a person died when it was well within your means to help them?
Or could you not live with the fact that by you helping someone it could end up with you being the one seriously harmed and your friends and family grieving over you.
I don't really have an answer, guess you just have to be in that type of situation.
But between working and writing a dissertation I have no time to do anything but I've been feeling overly creative recently and I had to release something.
So because a few of you wonderful people know that my dissertation is on youth violence, quite a number of you text me a couple of nights ago telling me to watch channel 4 because you thought it was relevant to my disso.
It wasn't that relevant at all but it was interesting none the less.
And it poses the very real question that in any given situation when another member of our society is in trouble would we help them even if it meant risk to our own well being?
Now being where we are from, it is an unspoken rule that you just simply don't get involved in someone else's affairs if it does not concern you. It is not your beef so why should you get involved? Which is very true and it also protects you. Because even a polite "what's going on" can lead to the tables turning on you and before you know it your in a life threatening situation.
There was one story when a little boy was getting rushed on a packed bus by a group of like 15 youths and everyone just ignored it like it was not happening. Which I thought was shocking but I questioned myself and I would have probably done the same thing.
I remember going to a temp job around Christmas times like 2 years ago and I was on Tottenham High Road at like 5:30 in the morning. I was walking towards the bus stop and there seemed to be one crazy guy talking to two people. As I got closer I realised it was a typical "Jacking" situation where the guy was searching the guys looking for possessions he could steal.
Now I just walked past pretending not to see what was happening, just praying the guy did not see me as a potential victim because it was way too early for me to start fighting. But my bus came and I hopped on it just thankful this crazy guy had not tried to approach me. I do not know what happened to the other two guys.............................
And that's just the thing. In this day and age even if we see someone is in need of help, would we help them?
I'm sure the usual things run through our heads...
"Its not my place to get involved"
"What about if I get hurt trying to help this person?"
"Maybe they deserve it, who knows, they might have a valid reason for wanting to hurt the person?"
The documentary told the story of a woman called Roisin whose son had seen some children getting jacked and he decided to go and intervene. Unfortunately, he was fatally stabbed by the guy who was doing the jacking. A sad story I know but a real one. There is no guarantee when intervening in a dangerous situation that you will come out safe the other side.
There was another story of a guy who was getting his head kicked in by some crazy guy, luckily a passer by and a wife came to the guys rescue and saved his life.
So what would your choice be?
I guess it all comes down to what you could live with.
Could you live with the fact that a person died when it was well within your means to help them?
Or could you not live with the fact that by you helping someone it could end up with you being the one seriously harmed and your friends and family grieving over you.
I don't really have an answer, guess you just have to be in that type of situation.
Mikez World v1.2
So as you can see the long awaited renovations have finally been done. Because its been a while some of you guys might not actually remember what v1.0 looked like but trust me its different.
There is only one person to thank for this,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,and that's my blogging mentor JULIE.
She did everything out of the kindness of her heart. So finally things are starting to fall into place.
And don't worry I got some proper blog posts in the pipe waiting to be published.
From the team at MIKEZ WORLD
There is only one person to thank for this,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,and that's my blogging mentor JULIE.
She did everything out of the kindness of her heart. So finally things are starting to fall into place.
And don't worry I got some proper blog posts in the pipe waiting to be published.
From the team at MIKEZ WORLD
Thursday, 19 March 2009
I'm Back
Got my Laptop back.
I'll be posting real soon.
Its been too long man.....
I'll be posting real soon.
Its been too long man.....
Sunday, 8 February 2009
BAD NEWS
Unfortunately people due to unforeseen circumstances my laptop has been recalled for repairs and I will not be able to blog for around 3 weeks.
I know I know, its not fair but that's just life sometimes. I'll be back as soon as my laptop is returned to me
I know I know, its not fair but that's just life sometimes. I'll be back as soon as my laptop is returned to me
Wednesday, 4 February 2009
Forget Me Nots- Back In The Day Record Of The Week #3
I've got a real classic for you guys this week.
Probably one of the most underrated and greatest UK soul singers we have ever had. And the song I have for you today is his most succesful track.
Lynden David Hall - Sexy Cinderella.
In October 2003, Hall was diagnosed with Hodgkin's lymphoma; he died on 14 February 2006, at the age of 31, from complications resulting from the stem cell transplant he received in January 2005. Lynden was in remission at the time of his death.
RIP Lynden David Hall, You're music will surely live on.....................
Probably one of the most underrated and greatest UK soul singers we have ever had. And the song I have for you today is his most succesful track.
Lynden David Hall - Sexy Cinderella.
In October 2003, Hall was diagnosed with Hodgkin's lymphoma; he died on 14 February 2006, at the age of 31, from complications resulting from the stem cell transplant he received in January 2005. Lynden was in remission at the time of his death.
RIP Lynden David Hall, You're music will surely live on.....................
One Thousand Eight Hundred and Twenty- Seven Days
I'm feeling weird at the moment because I had forgot that on the 2nd February it was my Dad's anniversary of death. I was all caught up with the commotion of the snow day and feeling overjoyed that I got to miss work and had no Uni that I had forgotten the day that had been on my mind for the last couple of weeks.
1827 is the exact number of days since my dad passed away (including the two leap days, just in case ur neeky).
Obviously this is a sensitive subject for me but I feel that after 5 years I can finally talk about it to a degree. I'm not gonna talk about my whole experience cos' I'm definitely not that open but I'm just going to write about how in 5 years I have grown from a boy to a man.
Today was the day exactly five years ago when my father was taken away from me, suddenly and unexpectedly. I do not need to tell you that it was very hard time for me and my family. And if any of you know about Nigerian culture, you know that it is up to the first born son to take over as the head of the household and take over the responsibilities of the recently deceased father. Now, hearing this as a sixteen year old I did not want this responsibility, or burden which is how I saw it. I was Young and selfish. I did not want any other responsibilities, I wanted to carry on acting immature and not having a care in the world. But life has a funny way of thrusting you into these kind of positions.
Losing someone in life is never something easy to get over, especially when they gave life to you. I can't be bitter because I did have him in my life for 16 years and I know there are many people who don't even know their dads. But no matter how many years pass I know life never gets easier without him. I just know life goes on, regardless. Its even weirder because no matter how much I used to deny it, every time I look in the mirror I see him staring back at me. I look more and more like him very passing day. And I hold the lesson's he taught me close to my heart and always try to follow them through.
It seems like it was only a couple of months ago we were making funeral arrangements. And now 5 years has passed already. I don't know where the time has gone, honestly. I mean 5 years? Just passed like that. I can't really get my mind around it. But in that time I've learnt to be self sufficient, I learned to handle my business and I learnt what it truly means to be considered a man. I learnt how to accept responsibility for my mistakes and apologise for them. I don't really have any regrets, and I wouldn't have done anything differently.
I only wish I could have gotten to know him better.
But I'm thankful for the time we did spend together, and the knowledge he infused in me and the love he showed me.
I'm proud to be your son, and I will always miss you.
Life doesn't get any easier but I know you wouldn't accept any excuses, so I carry on for you and the family you left me to look after.
1827 is the exact number of days since my dad passed away (including the two leap days, just in case ur neeky).
Obviously this is a sensitive subject for me but I feel that after 5 years I can finally talk about it to a degree. I'm not gonna talk about my whole experience cos' I'm definitely not that open but I'm just going to write about how in 5 years I have grown from a boy to a man.
Today was the day exactly five years ago when my father was taken away from me, suddenly and unexpectedly. I do not need to tell you that it was very hard time for me and my family. And if any of you know about Nigerian culture, you know that it is up to the first born son to take over as the head of the household and take over the responsibilities of the recently deceased father. Now, hearing this as a sixteen year old I did not want this responsibility, or burden which is how I saw it. I was Young and selfish. I did not want any other responsibilities, I wanted to carry on acting immature and not having a care in the world. But life has a funny way of thrusting you into these kind of positions.
Losing someone in life is never something easy to get over, especially when they gave life to you. I can't be bitter because I did have him in my life for 16 years and I know there are many people who don't even know their dads. But no matter how many years pass I know life never gets easier without him. I just know life goes on, regardless. Its even weirder because no matter how much I used to deny it, every time I look in the mirror I see him staring back at me. I look more and more like him very passing day. And I hold the lesson's he taught me close to my heart and always try to follow them through.
It seems like it was only a couple of months ago we were making funeral arrangements. And now 5 years has passed already. I don't know where the time has gone, honestly. I mean 5 years? Just passed like that. I can't really get my mind around it. But in that time I've learnt to be self sufficient, I learned to handle my business and I learnt what it truly means to be considered a man. I learnt how to accept responsibility for my mistakes and apologise for them. I don't really have any regrets, and I wouldn't have done anything differently.
I only wish I could have gotten to know him better.
But I'm thankful for the time we did spend together, and the knowledge he infused in me and the love he showed me.
I'm proud to be your son, and I will always miss you.
Life doesn't get any easier but I know you wouldn't accept any excuses, so I carry on for you and the family you left me to look after.
Tuesday, 3 February 2009
Snow Day 02/02/09
I LOVE SNOW
I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT.
I Haven't seen it for years because I'm usually on holiday when it does decide to snow. You could imagine my surprise when I woke up to this beautiful sight:
Obviously, the first thing to cross my mind was whether Uni was closed for the day. I held my breath as I checked the Uni website to see if this was the case.
YES!!!!
Next I had to check to see if I still had to go to work. It would really make my day if I didn't have to go in. Called in, they said I didn't have to come in ..............................YES.
After this great news I decided to celebrate by picking up a Wii remote and playing a couple of rounds of Mario Kart with the Yungas. Luckily Ross had gone shopping the day before so we didn't have to brave the harsh weather conditions to get food. Unlike some unfortunate friends I have who did not see the NUMEROUS news reports advising people not to leave their houses, who decided to go for a stroll and do some shopping. It soon dawned on them after trekking for 3 hours that they had made a mistake and after constant slips and falls they decided to turn back. But the damage had been done. Last I heard one of them is dying in bed with pneumonia and the other is an icicle in a park somewhere. Silly Eediots!!!!
Neway after like 6 hours of Mario Kart we got bored and decided to venture out side into the beautiful winter wonder land.
I decided to wrap up warm and return to my ninja days. I know certain people will see dis pic and get flashbacks of the masked snow avenger that used to dish out large snowballs of pain when it snowed. aaaaaaaaaaaaah memories. So we continued on:

We then decided to go and cause mischief elsewhere. So we hopped into Rets' car looking for unsuspecting victims. Unfortunately we did not make it 10 metres before his steering locked and we were sliding aimlessly towards a parked car. Lets just say we had to work quickly to move the car and leave no trace of the accident, some real CSI shit. It was not easy because we were on a hill which was frozen over and we had no grip but we got it done in the end.
We then decided to walk to the Avenue and pay a visit to our good friends at 32. They didn't want to come out and play so we decided to have our own brand of fun.
Aaaah Good times. We then took the brief walk back home. After reflecting on my day I realised that it was a great day. Then I went online and realised that HEROES was back!!! That just made my day and snow day 09 was officially crowned one of the best days of my life!!
I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT.
I Haven't seen it for years because I'm usually on holiday when it does decide to snow. You could imagine my surprise when I woke up to this beautiful sight:

UNI IS CLOSED DUE TO WEATHER CONDITIONS
YES!!!!
Next I had to check to see if I still had to go to work. It would really make my day if I didn't have to go in. Called in, they said I didn't have to come in ..............................YES.
After this great news I decided to celebrate by picking up a Wii remote and playing a couple of rounds of Mario Kart with the Yungas. Luckily Ross had gone shopping the day before so we didn't have to brave the harsh weather conditions to get food. Unlike some unfortunate friends I have who did not see the NUMEROUS news reports advising people not to leave their houses, who decided to go for a stroll and do some shopping. It soon dawned on them after trekking for 3 hours that they had made a mistake and after constant slips and falls they decided to turn back. But the damage had been done. Last I heard one of them is dying in bed with pneumonia and the other is an icicle in a park somewhere. Silly Eediots!!!!
Neway after like 6 hours of Mario Kart we got bored and decided to venture out side into the beautiful winter wonder land.
We then decided to go and cause mischief elsewhere. So we hopped into Rets' car looking for unsuspecting victims. Unfortunately we did not make it 10 metres before his steering locked and we were sliding aimlessly towards a parked car. Lets just say we had to work quickly to move the car and leave no trace of the accident, some real CSI shit. It was not easy because we were on a hill which was frozen over and we had no grip but we got it done in the end.
We then decided to walk to the Avenue and pay a visit to our good friends at 32. They didn't want to come out and play so we decided to have our own brand of fun.
Wednesday, 28 January 2009
Forget Me Nots- Back In The Day Record Of The Week #2
Oh My Dayz............................ I'm really going to bring back a lot of memories with this one. This is an Old Skool Garage Classic. I mean SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET. Do I know my music or do I know my music? I know when you listen to the song you're gonna be like "that was my TUUUUUUUUUNE!"
Any way for your listening pleasure here's MJ Cole - Crazy Love.
I tried to get the original video for you but youtube would not let me embed the actual video. But you can just go there yourself and watch the actual video to bring bakc even more memories. But the live performance is not bad at all.
ENJOY......................
Any way for your listening pleasure here's MJ Cole - Crazy Love.
I tried to get the original video for you but youtube would not let me embed the actual video. But you can just go there yourself and watch the actual video to bring bakc even more memories. But the live performance is not bad at all.
ENJOY......................
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